December 7, 2009

• *rubs pads together* CLEAR! …

  *shocks!!*

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  I’ve implemented somewhat of a ‘rebirth’ to my Xanga, all in the hope of bringing this vessel of expression and communication back to a state of vibrance and reception.
  
  Although the community that IS Xanga has, for the most part, degenerated since the days I began this weblog, instead of concerning myself with newer places, I decided that this blog still has too much potential to simply leave to the ravens. Therefore, I am going to put forth a new mindset in my posting, and hopefully it will attract more open minds.
  
  For those of you open minds who have kept with me here, I thank you. XD
  
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  Recent times have been stressful on the mind, concerning changes in my way of life. I no longer feel the want to linger in my ‘post-teenage’ mindset. Changes are a must! … I need to begin thinking about myself creatively and professionally, and not allow the influence of the self-indulged to place me as their workhorse. I’ve been producing hip-hop for a long time now, and I will say with no second thought that I have very little to show for it other than the progress of those I have helped, and the experience gained. In a way, I am not ungrateful, knowing how far my friends have made it with my help, but as I’ve stressed to them in times past, I’m not apt to do this forever, especially not for free. …  … a slice into my current life. I am not perfect

  To make up for my own hiatus, I’ve turned my efforts to my other great passion aside from music,… writing. I’ve begun to finally put thoughts down to paper in the effort to kick-start my dream of writing fiction novels. I’ve had this interesting mesh of ideas flowing, and one of the greater story ideas I have conjured from inspiration from times past, that I originally thought I would save for later, is in the process of manifesting on paper. … This book will be a creative experience as it will be a spiritual one. How you ask? … The central theme of this book surrounds the phenomena/art of ‘Dream Walking‘.

  You see, about 5 years ago, in the early life of this blog, I came across many intriguing people. Two of them, who I did not converse much with, I found a world of fascination, to be quite honest. These two were about my own age, and both were deeply embedded in the supernatural. More specifically, they were (self-titled) ‘dream walkers’. I had a very childish wonder with them, as they spoke about their many experiences,… some of them having to do with helping others through their spiritual struggles, or battling demons and dark beings,… that seemed much to outrageous to be made up. At one point, my fascination became evident to them, despite I was not very sharp in those days, and one of the two invited me to see another blog of theirs, … a more personal one. Of course, I am aware that, especially in the realm of imaginative teenagers, that the creative mind is more than capable of inventing the illusion of such things, but I was clearly sold back in those times, and their existence inspired something pretty epic in my own creative mindset. Now, I debate their authenticity, but while I do, I take away the emotions of that time, and now I’m making it a priority to revisit them, by composing a fiction story based loosely on these two, and the art of dream-walking in general.

  I know for sure that I will eventually reach a stumbling block, given that I insist on experiencing certain phenomena before even THINKING about writing about them in any accurate sense. I refuse to ‘wing’ ideas, or ‘speculate’ how it ‘could’ be. It is both unrealisitic, and insulting to the definite nature of metaphysics/supernaturality. How I expect to get over that hill will be beyond me, but I will deal with that climb once I get there.

  There is a lot more to talk about concerning writing, but I’m going to move the subject along.

  I’ve dug into a new book (reading-wise). … Secret Teachings of All Ages. … Strangely enough, I saw the book referenced on Craigslist (a wiccan was selling a few books), so as usual, I Google’d it, and instead of finding a description of the book, I found a website that contains, for public view, the ENTIRE BOOK, chapter by chapter. I still have not breached the Introduction (very lengthy), but it has spoken to me continuously. … I’ve wondered if this book is some sort of prerequisite for a specific belief system, but in a way, I don’t care. It has A LOT of info about the bare-essentials behind EVERY facet of Western philosophy, from the Greeks, to the Catholics, to the Germans, to the birthing of Science in its widely-accepted form. Furthermore, it promises to indulge into the core of Hermetic teachings, the teachings of many pagan cultures, and into monotheism. … It makes me feel like I am accomplishing a lot in reading this book. XD

  Anyhow, that is where I am currently at.
  … A lot to take in. Feel free to comment on any one thing, if you don’t feel like reading it all.

  =)

  To make
  

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