June 8, 2010
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Its been a while since I’ve written anything on here.
Things have been awesome, horrid, and as of recently, … boxed-in.
THE AWESOME: I came back from China a month ago. It was perhaps the most amazing set of experiences in my life (thus far). The Chinese people are awesome, the culture is amazing, and my choirs performances received nothing short of standing ovation at the various universities we performed. I will never forget it!… as a matter of fact, I’m making it priority to go back someday soon!
THE HORRID: Unfortunately, many flights means much ear pressure, and apparently, through some odd series of events, both self-inflicted and accidental, I somehow damaged my left ear. For a musician, damaging hearing is bad-news-bears. While most of my hearing has returned, I now have Tinnitus in my left ear (constant, unstoppable ear ringing). This took a great toll on my esteem during the 2nd week back. Fortunately, I’ve been taking Lipflavanoid vitamins which help stop ear ringing. They’re working.BOXED-IN: I’m back at my college dorm (summer housing), without a job, a limited amount of funding each month, not all that many people to socialize with this time around, and I have a CONSIDERABLE unrest in my mind to do something productive, go out and meet new people, and make life exciting. However, I look around and see the same damn things day in and day out. I don’t what to do. … I’m tearing myself apart. I feel like life is mattering to me less now that I’m not around as many people day in and out as I was when college was in full swing. … I’ve always had issues with ‘getting out there’ and ‘meeting new people’,….. but now, I don’t really have a choice. I have to do something, and muther-fucking Craigslist has almost run me dry. It is times like this that make we wonder why I don’t live in Chicago. … Or New York. …. Or BEIJING!!
That sums up my recent developments.
The awesomeness has faded, and trouble is brewing.
How best to deal…
Comments (9)
Missed you! Sounds like China was wonderful! I always thought it would be. Glad you got to experience that. Sorry about the tinnitus. Hope that goes away. Meanwhile, it sounds like you need a job that involves travel. Maybe Navy or Coast Guard? Or, if you’d rather avoid the military ilk, maybe something else. A while back ago, a company name Dewetron tried to head hunt me, obviously thinking me more technical than I actually am. They’re one of my vendors for the Aerospace company I work for. What they’d really be able to use are people with engineering, advanced computer, or electronic skills. They thought that was me because I can talk the talk and do so frequently to them, but really I’m only admin and just know some of that by osmosis. However, if you could possibly walk the walk, I’d check them out if I were you. What are you taking in college? Anything like that? The job (there are actually several such openings) involves travel to companies all over the world to demonstrate the newest technologies. I think you’d probably like it.
Sounds like one crazy rollercoaster ride to me-lol.
Of course, It’s wonderful to know you had a blast in China, and damn the tinnitus!
As for being boxed-in…I am in the same boat, to an extent. I’m not on campus(thank goodness) but I am cut off, with few resources, one of them being a limited supply of funds [thanks to lay-offs]….I make the most with what i have, but nonetheless, itseems to never fully satisfy the restlessness in my mind.
But it is good to hear from you again on here! =)
@Ampbreia - That does sound like an amazing opportunity for employment. However, I do need to return to school in the fall for one more semester, so I’m not sure if such a job can wait weekends, and I enjoy my precious weekends during the school semester. Also, my majors are in Business and Music, so I could talk-the-talk, and maybe do some walking, but I’m not an engineer, despite that I love electronics of all sorts, and am quite a computer nerd. So, I’m unsure,… but it also sounds awesome… like something I’d totally get into! ^_^
And yes, China was awesome. Great pictures. Great memories. Great Culture.
While I was there, I had the fantasizing epiphany of what it would be like to live in China, and with my American Music/Biz education, try to start a record label or something music related (over there). See what kind of untapped market I can attract. Help more Chinese youth find their identity in music/live music. I figured it would be awesome to bring the Music (Hippie) Festival tradition over to China, without ‘Westernizing’ the culture with it. More like… make it authentically Chinese. … I unno. … I felt while I was over there that it was something I wanted to start and share with the Chinese people/culture a bit.
But thats a randomly inspired idea. I’d have to live there, and I don’t know Mandarin, … or any people over there.
It’s still a wonderful dream.
@mindreading_healer -
Lol. Its good to be back. XD
Its not as fun as it should be, that’s for sure. Life is not meant to feel boxed-in, and it bothers the hell out of me, but I am finding a few things to remedy it. Right now, I’m off-campus, back at home where it the atmosphere doesn’t seem so messy.
Its funny to hear you talk about lay-offs. I recently saw a news report talking about how for the first time in a few years, the rate of people ‘voluntarily quitting’ their jobs is greater than the rate of ‘lay-offs’. … The news anchor tried playing it off as if the economy was getting better, but I rather think that people are getting more fed-up, and employers are not paying as well. I unno.
being boxed-in and bored is like slowly draining your soul…ugh. Feeling your pain dude.
Hmm…Well I think that people are getting more fed-up these days, because they don’t get paid well enough for the work that they put in..but sadly i dunno if the employers around my part of v.a. have noticed that tidbit of info. or seen the news report lol.
I’m really not all that distressed about the job-loss, tho. I have other things to keep my mind busy and the time I have now allows me to write more on my books and focus on things that are more important than that of monetary needs.
Hey Matthew! It’s been ages but from reading about it, it sounds like you’re doing great…there will always be impediments and slow days but traveling, seeing the world and being more attuned to how much more boring your surroundings are is a testament of an active mind if you want to look at that way…an overall inward improvement
Glad I logged on again to read about ya..
@leahckeller - Hey you! =)
Long time no talk! Where/how have you been lately? Any new songs?
I have been pretty alright,… for the most part. Better than before, and yet worse at the same time.
Nonsense always likes to rearrange itself into new problems, but that’s here nor there.
Awesome seeing yas again!