April 22, 2010

• Open a Window

  I find myself sitting at my computer, at the same time each night this week, and it seems it is lacking something.
  A stable channel of social activity.

  Connecting to other conscious entities has become a source for stimulation recently (online, that is), and I can’t seem to put together why I’ve gotten to the point where I suddenly have not a person to establish such with, because… well… everyone is OFFLINE. It seems to be my ongoing battle to keep my avatar in connection with others. I’ve suddenly found myself on a strange desert island, lacking intrigue, resonance, and thought provoking conversation.

  Hense, why tonight, my latest affirmation has a bit to do with ‘opening windows’.
  This is because, at the essence of this stimulation, what it is I am truly looking for is a thought-provoking source of intrigue that my apparent reality is not currently supplying me. I’ve been busy with school work, and other things that are important for this point in my life, but the truth is,… there is so much extra time between these responsibilities that does exist. Part of it is me not having the conscious energy to make use out of these spaces between tasks, but another part of it is that the flow of opportunities in my direction seem to be pushed back by (most likely) myself. Thusly, when it seems that the dullness of an idle well-being, … a time such as this one, … acts as the closed door to my vast room of knowledge, spirit, and material playtoys,… there must be a way to open a window and gain a breath of fresh air, and a new, thought-provoking atmosphere.

  On a lighter note, I’m going to China in two weeks.

  …

  … still, two weeks is much to far away for me. If only there was something that could occupy that ‘between time’, and that could fulfill that empty spot on my mental schedule.

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