July 10, 2009
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Suspicious Occurences
Have you ever had mysterious things happen on your trek through everyday life, and it seems in some way that it could be a ‘message’, but in the fact of everything, you probably will never know?
Yesterday…… I was driving back to my home in North Branch to visit my mom and sister about something. I’m not going to describe too much of what the incident pertained to because just thinking about it rekindles a bit of anger, so we can just agree that yesterday was just a stressful day in my world. More stressful than any other day, for specific reasons.I was standing inside my kitchen, having burnt myself out a bit from being angry about the ‘unspoken’ situation, and I was just taking a breather from my frustration. I was leaning against the kitchen counter, just clearing out my thoughts silently, while the TV was sitting across the room. Suddenly, the TV seemed to lose signal all of a sudden, and nothing but loud static erupts from the speakers, and I’m gazing in its direction wondering what could be the cause of it. Then, the signal returns, and the first thing I see on the TV screen are the numbers 1.11. I blinked, wondering if the event that just happened now was deliberate, or random.If you are like me, you like to take significance out of certain numerlogical combinations, not because you simply suspect they mean something, but because as you’ve grown into contact with them, you realize that they seem to occur at certain times that seem… syncronized. The metaphysical belief if that the purpose of numerology is to establish an easy way for spiritual sources to communicate with human beings, since the spiritual and the corporeal reside on two entirely different frequency ranges, and conventional ways of communication are out of the question. Its somewhat of a catch 22. In this case, 1.11, or any combination of 1′s (11:11, 111, 11.1) has the tendency to mean that you are beginning a new cycle, or you are on the way of rebirthing yourself in some way, usually in the short term sense. Of course, most of this I managed to pass out of mind for some reasonAfter the day had gone by, and I was back at my place of living in Coon Rapids, I watched a movie with my friend, and then went to bed. I could seem to get the thoughts out of my system. So much anger and rage had built up. Its usually not like me to feel so angry, but after I managed to daydream a rather, wicked scenario in my mind, I fell back on my subjectivity. I realize that although I am someone who contains much love and admiration for the world, I am also capable of unspeakable evils. When the anger is too much, it seems as if nothing is entirely sacred. I knew that the only productive route would be to try and rid the negative energy from my body. I focused on the heaviness of my heart, and I began to wield my hand as if taking a handful of that energy, like it was sludge, and pushed it out into the room, away from myself. I usually do this as a theraputic method of visualizing the negativity as something I can just ‘throw away’ with my hands. It usually works pretty well.Asfter lying there for a bit, trying to clear my thoughts from my anger once again, the craziest thing happened. It had never happened in my room before. … The fire alarm in my room sounded off, woke me out of my attempted sleep, and freaked me out. The strangest thing was that the fire alarm only sounded off once. One loud, unbearable, concentration-breaking beep! … and then silence!I had no idea what just happened. I know that fire alarms are known to go off when the battery is low, but never just one beep. I stood up, and turned the lights on, paranoid about what just happened. I even gave a wiff the the air. … No smoke. No scent. No nothing.… and yet that one loud beep from the fire alarm in my room had completely zapped me out of my negative mindset.…It could have been a complete coincidence. … Except never has it happened except for last night.It could have been caused by the angry energy I pushed out of my body.A positive entity neutralizing my anger, or a negative one admitting defeat in a fit of frustration?I guess I will never know!Its all just speculation from here on out!This week in particular has been strange in much the same way. It has gotten me a tad confused, but also a tad interested. =/
Comments (4)
The thing that would really make me wonder is if this fire alarm went off near or on 1:10 am. That would be a truly bizarre occurrence indeed!
But, messages, portents, omens….We’ve all seen them. It just takes an open mind to recognize them, as the mind alters an ordinary situation into something it can use for healing, or for an ultimately desired end. You wanted a new beginning, I think, after your day of unspoken and unvented stress. Your mind took the coincidental occurrence of the TV outage to show you this, and you in your mindset chose to accept that. Or at least contemplate it.
The mind is truly a beautiful thing.
@Kaigo -
Very beautiful, indeed! =)
The subconscious mind, especially, seems to act like a voice in itself, telling the conscious mind through subjective ‘messages’ and synchronized thought patterns what it requires of the conscious mind. Many of us don’t seem to realize what type of damage negative, angry, or fearful emotions can do to the body and the subconscious. If you look into psychology and the study of the brain itself, all of these emotions are of lower brain frequency which can actually break down cells in the nervous system if not relieved.
Even in knowing this kind of information, we all tend to get lost to our egoic urges when something disrupts our ego in such a way.
Metaphysics deals in the ‘higher mind’, which is the mindset which is invoked in times of spiritual or religious subjectivity. A lot of times, the higher mind and subconscious mind seem to have better relation to each other than the conscious mind, which is left worrying so much about “What do I need to do today”, “How much money am I getting paid this week at my job?”, “How many days till the weekend?”, “My neighbor is pissing me off right now!”,… that unless you can clear the conscious mind for but a few moments, its hard to establish communication with the ‘self’, or any other powers in existence. This is why some practices (like numerology, meditation, etc.) have the ability to establish a more constant route of intermingling with the conscious and subconscious/higher minds.
… You came back to Xanga at an interesting time, my friend!
I’m not sure if I have your IM addy anymore, but we should catch up a bit!
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Oh! and I actually don’t remember when the ‘fire alarm’ thing happened, but it was around that time. May have been, without my knowing. =/
I am quite curious to what made you so angry, yet I wouln’t want to lead you down a dark path once more. I am reading an interesting book by Carl Jung called Man and his Symbols, which pretains to the fact that The Goddess and the God(or whatever power so to speak) sends us messages through symbols and numbers.
@orokrebanya -
Interesting stuff, eh? =)
Numerology is found in almost every religion known to man.
The divine has truly unique ways of communicating with mortals, no matter what your version of the divine may be. Although, many people say that these are messages from spirit guides, rather than directly from an omnipotent source. It would make sense I guess.